We are all the same people.
With sinning hearts that make us equal.
Here is my hand, not words said desperately.
It is not our job to MAKE anyone believe.

Monday, September 22, 2008

I remember when

Glenn Beck did a segment on his program a few months back about the Statue of Liberty. He said few people knew what was inscribed there so me, being a fountain of useless knowledge decided to be one of the few who knew what it said in full. Today I have decided to share in my wealth.

Not like the brazen giant of Greek fame,
With conquering limbs astride from land to land;
Here at our sea-washed, sunset gates shall stand
A mighty woman with a torch, whose flame
Is the imprisoned lightning, and her name
Mother of Exiles.
From her beacon-hand
Glows world-wide welcome; her mild eyes command
The air-bridged harbor that twin cities frame.
"Keep, ancient lands, your storied pomp!" cries she
With silent lips. "Give me your tired, your poor,
Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,
The wretched refuse of your teeming shore.
Send these, the homeless, tempest-tossed to me,
I lift my lamp beside the golden door!"

Care to give your opinion on what she says? Cause you know in due time I'll probably give my opinion.... you might as well get your 2 cents in as well lol

If someone were to ask me what I wanted at this exact moment I would simply direct them to this picture.

This picture speaks a thousand words in about a thousand languages, it is what drives my desires and captures my free thought. I love the ocean! I want it, I long for it!

It may seem silly but I can't help that. It's just me.

Here is another driving force (yes, Bryan the picture is sideways lol no comments please).

Look at those colors though. It is so gorgeous! What an amazing Artist who created such a masterpiece!

It simply takes my breath away (and my ability to form decent sentences it would seem and for that I apologize).

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Let's go a little farther

Places I want to visit in my lifetime:

  1. Grand Canyon
  2. Sydney, Australia
  3. New York (again)
  4. Ayers Rock in Australia (at sunrise or sunset)
  5. Venice, Italy (only because of Ross Kings' song)
  6. Maldives (sometime in the early part of the year)
  7. The Great Wall of China
  8. Victoria Falls
  9. Yosemite Valley

And like every state in the continental US. :)

I really want to spend more time exploring Texas and the Western US as well. Ive only ever been to the Eastern states and wouldnt mind changing that.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Lets go a little deeper, shall we?

Not many people know this stuff so sit up and pay attention unless you just really don't care to know more. If that's the case then you might as well find something else to read.

Otherwise, enjoy :)

  1. I only write with G2 pens and Black Warrior pencils.

  2. I want to learn Spanish but my beliefs and bitterness regarding the Texas-Mexico boarder keep me from learning much I'm afraid.

  3. On more than one occasion I've wished to be able to read the Bible in Hebrew

  4. I love human anatomy

  5. Italian food is my favorite

  6. I pride myself on my wealth of random knowledge

  7. Learning is something I hope to never stop doing

  8. In school, History was my favorite subject.

  9. I want to live along the coast cause it's about as close to the water as I can be on a regular basis.

  10. Growing up I thought Firefighters were the most amazing group of people on the planet. That wouldn't have anything to do with dad being Chief, would it??! LOL I also spent more time at the station playing on the trucks then I did at the park on the swings or slide. Guess you could say the fire house was my playground growing up?? :)

  11. I loooove sweet tea :) I drink it like its going out of style.
  12. I also have a thing for apple juice slushes from Sonic and mountain dew of course. :) (Dad told me the other day Ive always reminded him of mom the way I love mt dew....I didnt even know she liked the stuff! lol )

  13. If you knew what was on my iPod you might be surprised...you might actually laugh a little

  14. I love cooking for other people but do not often like eating it myself

  15. Teaching is something I love doing

  16. I would rather live in Texas my entire life but realize there is a chance of that not happening

  17. I think I would have liked to have been born in the early 1900's

  18. Old Southern women make me smile :)

  19. eBay is a bit addicting for me if I'm not careful

  20. On my days off I listen to Glenn Beck then Rush Limbaugh and Sean Hannity followed by David Smoak on the radio. I also catch up on all my TV shows: Prison Break, Army Wives, Private Practice and in a few days I can add Grey's Anatomy back to the list!! :D Also while I'm getting dinner started I sometimes have SportsCenter on.
  21. I love salads but will only eat Romain lettuce...the rest of the family likes Iceburg or whatever but I dont like it at ALL! yuck!

  22. I want to meet Marcus Luttrell!! (oh wait, a lot of people already know I want that lol)

  23. I am very passionate about football and wont hesitate to let you know just how much I know about the sport (in time you may find that quality to be a bit annoying, sorry)

  24. I would love to relive this years July 4th ;) It was by far the best!

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

This is me, being bored. I apologize

Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
For sure! I love it :)

A big poofy dress or a short party dress?
I suppose a short party dress but being from the South, sun dresses are more my thing not 'party' dresses :)

What would you do if you received a long love letter?
ummmm.... read it lol

Group dates or single dates?
both are fine

Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends?
yes of course

6.Are diamonds a girl’s best friend?
Not this girl. Pearls are my thing :)

Is your hair up or down today?
Down, it's much more feminine

Do you straighten your hair?

Favorite mascara?
Don't have a fave

Do you get your nails done?
I do indeed

Small or large purses?

In your purse, what are your must haves?
wallet, cell phone, lip gloss and a black or blue G2 pen (seriously, I'm pretty OCD about it...not really but close)

Jeans or sweats?
Jeans unless it's College Gameday in the Fall when it's cool outside. :)
Then it's sweats and my A&M hoodie :D

Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that’s uncomfortable?
I do indeed and it's worth it more often than not. :)

Do you text message a lot?
Like it's my job!

What would you do if you got pregnant?
My husband and I would discuss our child's future. Then I'd call everyone I know and tell them the good news :)

But don't expect that phone call for a looooooonnnnnggg time!!! lol

What’s your favorite color?
It changes.
Currently it is blue

Heels or flats?
I love heels though :)

Did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
Only the Notebook but that could have been because of who I watched it with! LOL
I almost cried once when I watched Pride and Prejudice but Kris was watching it with me so I sucked it up

Would you ever leave the house without make-up on?
Yes, I am comfortable enough with myself to do such a thing but I don't prefer it

Walmart or Target?
Walmart is more convenient otherwise I would like Target better

Do you wear collared shirts?
On occasions

Do you like preppy boys?
So it would seem considering my history

Do you think lip gloss is the best!?
for sure! :)

Do you own any big sunglasses?
psh.Heck no Sheriff! Those are gay.
I'm more sporty with my shades ;)

How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
it takes about an hour and 15 mins

Do you like to wear band-aids?
like? uh, no I don't suppose so.

Do you like skater boys?
I've dated my share of them

Do you often wish there was something you could change?

Gold or silver?
Silver for sure

Do you like to receive flowers?
I do indeed.
PS. Daises are my favorite :)

Do you like surfer boys?
Uh, there aren't many this far inland but I wont say I'm not attracted to them

Do you dress up for the holidays?

Do you like to wear dresses?
love to :)

On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you?
When you take out the silly emotions girls often allow themselves you find guys to be much less complicated. Actually that factors in with most of life....

In the last 48 hours have you hung out with a guy?
Oh course
Bry came to see me just this afternoon
He even brought me a sweet tea from Sonic (thanks love) :)

Would you date a guy shorter than you?
I wont limit myself to height but I prefer they be somewhat taller.

Do you like to hold hands?
love it!!! :)

What is the oldest you would date?
no more than 3 year older I guess but it matters very little to me

What do you notice when you first meet a guy?
smile then eyes, if I like that then I'll try and figure out their personality

What is the best feature in a guy?
looks change over time but personality rarely alters

Would you kill for chocolate?
uh, no lol
I'm really not much of a chocolate lover

Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
Ha, actually yes.
It's fun though so I don't do it so much because I need to or feel like I am supposed to. I really enjoy spending time "getting pretty" :)

On a scale from 1-10 how fun is shopping?

Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show?
DVR babyy!!! :)
However, if it's sports, I do tend to get a little upset but I certainly don't "freak out". I am very chill about life.

Do you yell a lot?
No way.
Very seldom do I yell.

Do you wear sweatpants/pajamas to school/work?
Ew, no!

Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy?
it's unlikely but perhaps

Do you write a lot of mushy love poems?
no, not 'mushy love poems' but I do on occasions get the urge to write a few lines of what I suppose you could consider metaphysical poetry. :)

What makeup could you not live w/ out?
lip gloss!

Do you fall in love easily?
Not at all

Do you think you have the bestest friend ever?
of course :)

aaannnd we're back

My ISP is awesome :)
As is the location of my home :)
I'll update later.
I have plenty to say after Ike!! :(
That was scaaaaaaarrryyy!!!

Friday, September 12, 2008

There will come a time when you might have to decide who lives and who dies out there.

The U.S. Coast Guard on Friday morning began helicopter rescues of up to 50 residents on the Texas coast, and a U.S. military official told CNN that 37,000 people may need to be rescued after Hurricane Ike strikes.

U.S. Coast Guard (USCG)
Department of Homeland Security Documents and Publications.
USCG continues to conduct port assessment operations and forces have been deployed to conduct response, recovery and clean up operations, and are working with port and industry partners.

USCG's mission is to open the ports as soon as possible with minimum effect on commerce.* USCG has 17 helicopters in Texas and 10 helicopters within reach to support search and rescue operations as needed. USCG also has 10 fixed-wing aircraft to support over-flight and transportation missions.

Wanna know what came to mind when I read the reports this morning? (I can't help it, it's just me...)

Ben Randall: There will come a time when you might have to decide who lives and dies out there. It's a terrible responsibility but it's one you will have to make as a rescue swimmer. The bigger reality is, its also something you are going to have to live with as a human being. There will come a time when you will have to say no. The most important person to keep alive is yourself. You'll be facing crews from 5 to 20 all saying 'save me, save me.' They're looking for a miracle. How old are you Hodge?
Ben Randall: At 24 years old you have to become that miracle. You have to find a way to be that miracle.
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Capt. Frank Larson: [During pep-talk:] When storms shut down the entire force, we go out. When hurricanes ground the United States Navy, we go out. And when the Holy Lord himself reaches down from heaven and destroys His good work with winds that rip houses off the ground, we go out.

I love this movie. I could seriously watch it all day if time allowed.

Lets play a game

Tell me who is known for these quotes.

"We will always remember.
We will always be proud.
We will always be prepared, so we may always be free."

"Give me and army of West Point graduates and I'll win a battle.
Give me a hadful of Texas Aggies, and I'll win the war."

“I have no fear that the result of our experiment will be that men may be trusted to govern themselves without a master.”

“Texas will again lift it's head and stand among the nations.
It ought to do so,
for no country upon the globe can compare with it in natural advantages.”

“Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference.”

“Be polite to all, but intimate with few.”

"Clinton lied. A man might forget where he parks or where he lives, but be never forgets oral sex, no matter how bad it it."
(This one never gets old and it's not the words so much that amuse me, it's who said it!)

"Who could refrain that had a heart to love and in that heart courage to make love known?”

“There are two types of people who will tell you that you cannot make a difference in this world: Those who are afraid to try themselves, and those who are afraid that you will succeed.”

“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”

"Demoralize the enemy from within by surprise, terror, sabotage, assassination.
This is the war of the future.”

"This moment contains all moments.”

"Listen to many, speak to a few.”
(I love this one!)

"The doom of a nation can be averted only by a storm of flowing passion,
but only those who are passionate themselves can arouse passion in others.”

"What you see and hear depends a good deal on where you are standing; it also depends on what kind of a person you are”

"How fortunate for leaders that men do not think.”

Okay, that's enough for now. Those are just a few of my favorite quotes.
Most are from pretty well known people so hopefully you know a good deal of who said these.
And even if you don't know who said them, they should give you a better idea about me. They are all top quotes of mine for a reason, eh.

Actually, here is one more.
It's not a quote but rather a few lines from a book I enjoy.
See if you can name the book.

"When the procession formed up before the emperor, she saluted him. The priest and the virgins surrounded her, and urged her to pay reverence to the statue of Diana. Pointing to her parents, they implored her for their sake to recant. Pale as death, she shook her head quietly.
"I cannot deny the Lord who died for me," she said.
Nero himself rose from his seat.
"Maiden," he said, "if not for your own sake, for the sake of those who love you, I pray you to cease from your obstinacy. How can a child like you know more than the wisest heads of Rome? How can you deny the gods who have protected and given victory to your country? I would fain spare you."
"I am but a child, as you say Caesar," Ennia replied.
"I have no strength of my own, but I am strong in the strength of Him I worship. He gave His life for me-it is not much that I should give mine for Him."
I had to take off from work today to go to the doctor. :(

Good news, no strep!

The game got moved tonight because of the hurricane.

In the meantime I've been trying to decide what I want to do on my blog for FPW. Yes, it's roughly a month away but still. Our boys down and the station have some cool stuff planned this year (like always) and it's giving me the itch to do something here as well.

I was looking around on the FPW's website and I am currently listening to some of the audio clips they offer. Those dang Yankee accents keep me very entertained. lol

She sounds like she's from Jersey or close to it. Some accents from up there I just can't stand. Oh my word! Wisconsin just hearing that word in a Wisconsin accent kills me. I try to stay away from hearing it at all costs.

It's just WI though. I love listening to other northern accents so go figure.

I can't believe it's been seven years

It was such a surreal day.

They say it's the Kennedy assassination of our generation - meaning, we'll always remember where we were and what we were doing when we found out.
Such a sad day in our history. Yes, with the Kennedy assassination, America lost a bit of its innocence. With 9/11, we lost a lot more.

Where were you?

I was at school. An innocent little 6th grader sitting in athletics waiting on the bell to ring for second period when coach came out of her office after having just received a phone call and explained to us what had happened to America.

By then both towers had fell, PA had been hit and the Pentagon was burning. I don't think any of us truly understood what it meant at the time but I do remember thinking that everything was going to change for our country.
When school let out I went home and like many, I was glued to the T.V. for the rest of the day, crying. The idea that thousands of people worked in the towers on a daily basis - and could all be gone - was horrifying. I kept thinking about the panic that their families must have been feeling, not knowing if they were okay.

I remember in the aftermath being so proud to be an American. It didn't take long for me to understand (at least on a basic level) what had happened seeing as my mother has always thought it was vitally important for us to stay in the middle of current local and world affairs.
I remember as soon as my school work was finished each day I would turn on the news to stay as up to date as possible. I watched as Americans from coast to coast, came together in support of one another. I was so proud of our nation.
Never in my life have I, as a southern girl, been truly proud of the north but I was amazed by how those guys responded to the attacks. I remember watching those brash Yankees get on the news and talk about how they(the terrorists) had messed with the wrong people by messing with NY and I felt overwhelmed with pride in those words. Guess that didn't last too long, did it? Now, I'm sure not everyone up north is crazy in thinking this was all fake but still.

What a difference seven years has made, eh? The Glenn Beck program this morning on 9/11 was amazing. You should go to his website and sign up to listen to the show, it's worth it.

Time has and will continue to show just how big of a change America will experience after this day in history. Time-- something so many that day no longer have thanks to these radical extremists. The thing that bugs me more each passing year on this day is how the number on people wishing to ignore that days events seems to be growing. The media doesn't want to show what happened or talk about it at all and that just can't happen lest we fall asleep again and become vulnerable to another attack.
Wake up America, wake up.
It's time to become alert again.
Time to join together again.
Time to show our enemies what America is really made of.
It's time America, wake up.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

I apologize about the Glenn Beck thing. It didnt occur to me that there might actually be people who aren't subscribed to him lol
Get in touch with me though and we can figure something out.


http://www.glennbeck.com/content/radio/ ((Watch the first video on 9/11))

9/11/08 Glenn Beck's Program about September 11, 2001.

Listen to the first hour.
It doesn't last an hour...just a few minutes.

you may think I'm crude for putting this on here but honestly, I don't care.
I have never said I was socially correct and I believe this is a prime example.
This kind of thing happened!
Because of what happened that day people just like this man had to decide how they wanted to die, burn to death or jump.
And it doesn't need to be pushed aside because it might hurt people all over again.
That's just inviting it to happen again!
This should not have had to happen in the first place!

I don't apologize for the way I feel about my county.
I never have and I never intend to.
This is my home and I shall treat it as such!

Guardians of the sea will have the chance to once again surpass expectations

The way people are evacuating, it is astoundingly evident to all that after Katrina, no one takes these events lightly. The news has dominated the airways on all cable channels, news outlets, and print media. So I'd expect that any available Coast Guard's resource will be allocated to Sector Houston-Galveston.

While this storm brings only anxiety and fear to most individuals, the Guardians' emotions are only partly consistent with those who can evacuate. I say partly because with devastation, there is always an opportunity to shine through.
Oh what irony today brings. In this decade, the U.S. Coast Guard has risen to the challenge many times. The service seems to always exceed their expectations. However, there are no greater defining moments in the service's recent history than September 11, 2001 and August 29, 2005. An anniversary that we mourn today and a storm's monstrosity that was only outdone by news of the historic heroics of the U.S Coast Guard. It was a an effort that will serve as the standard-bearer for the Coast Guard's SAR capabilities.

I pray the Texas coast and inland cities dodge a devastating blow but I will also send my prayers for the Coast Guard, just in case we need them.

A few less heroes in the world

I feel there are a few lessons that we should have learned on that day. One of them is there are evil people out there that want to kill us and destroy our great nation. Tied closely to this is the fact that what happens on the other side of world can affect us here at home. Also, you never know when your time is up. Life is too short to be worrying about stupid little things. When we leave for work in the morning there's no guarantee we'll make it home that evening. There's no guarantee our flight will make it to its destination.

September 11th, 2001 produced some of the darkest clouds we have ever seen. We saw our two great pillars of capitalism brought down, a hole put into our great symbol of our military might, and a crater put left in Pennsylvania's countryside. We saw people faced with a decision of how they were going to die, burn or jump 90+ stories. A few days later we saw people desperately getting in front of TV cameras begging for their missing loved ones to contact them, or for people to look out for their missing loved ones. We saw walls in Manhattan covered with posters with pictures of missing people. It's one thing to hear a number; it's another to put faces with those numbers. There were indeed many dark clouds.

But, with those darkest of clouds were the brightest of silver linings. We came to appreciate how our military puts their lives on the line day after day to keep us safe and free. On that day we were also reminded about how brave our first responders are, day in and day out they put their lives on the line to save others. When people were running from the Twin Towers police and port authority officers were running to it to help save lives. When office workers were running down the stairs of the Twin Towers New York City firefighters were running up the stairs to save lives. There were many other acts of heroism by average people that saved many lives at the World Trade Center and the Pentagon.

Then of course there are the heroic efforts of 40 brave passengers aboard United flight 93. They knew what their fate was. They heard about the World Trade Center and knew their plane was now a guided missile headed for a target on the ground, which we now know was the White House or the Capital Building. They could have sat back and hoped for the best. But, instead they voted and decided to take back the plane and save countless lives on the ground. They claimed the first victory in the war on terror. We came together as a country to help out our fellow Americans that lost loved ones. We came together to help each cope and make it through the sorrow, sadness, and anger we felt in the days after. We realized what a great country we live in and weren't afraid to show our pride for it. The world became full of Americans with notes, and American flags, and flowers left at American embassies. There were all sorts of tributes on every corner of Earth.

I'd like to thank our nation's first responders, military, and every day heroes. Yall are one of the biggest reasons America is the greatest country on Earth. There's nothing I could ever say or do to give you the thanks you truly deserve. Again, my heart goes out to the victims of the terrorist attacks that occurred seven years ago and the people that knew them.

"Wow" is all that comes to mind

So, I was going through and cleaning up some files on the computer last night and ended up not being very productive.

But I did came across a lot of old pictures I thought were interesting and wanted to post a few of them here.

This, from one of our ever popular summer trips to the Capital. :)

and this one as well (I should have edited this it a bit, sorry its not straight):

Current President of the United States of America and former Governor of the great state of Texas, George W. Bush :)

Rick picking on Josh (like always)

Kris and our grandmothers just after she played Taps at the courthouse on Memorial day last year

Check out the hair! lol

Tell me that's not a blast from the past, eh?!

This was before he started to seriously consider the CG. I kinda miss the long hair... :/

He went from that to this:

He says it's still too long.... maybe so but still, I liked the long hair.

Awww! I miss Joci being that little. Now she rarely lets me hold her like that :(

I feel old saying this but I really don't like seeing her grow up so fast!

She has on her red apron so this must have been around Christmas time...maybe last Christmas-ish??

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Lone Survivor (book review)

Everyone in America should read this book to better understand the amazing men and women who fight for us each and every day and the challenges they confront along the way.
The book is written in two quite distinct parts. The first part is about Seal Training and the second part is about Operation Redwing. Interwoven in the two parts is Marcus Luttrell's life before and after Afghanistan, and his quest to visit each of the families of his friends who were lost and his healing and understanding of the events that occured that day.

The Prologue opens with "..my name is Marcus. And I'm writing this book because of my three buddies Mikey, Danny and Axe. If I don't write it, no one will ever understand the indomitable courage under fire of those three Americans. And that would be the biggest tragedy of all."

The first half of the book is autobiographical. We learn of Marcus' life in Texas - and he's all Texan!(I loved this of course) - the lifelong desire to become a Navy SEAL and the grueling school to become a Navy SEAL. If you want to know what becoming a SEAL is all about, Marcus tells you. Their training is beyond intense and you can't help but have complete respect for SEALs and hold them in awe for their courage, strenght and fortitude. They are trained in body and mind.

The second half of the book deals with Operation Redwing. Marcus takes us into the battle, into the death of his team and dear friends - Mike Murphey, Danny Deitz and Matt Axelson.
The grueling battle, the fall of over one thousand feet down a mountain side, the struggle to survive despite the vast number of enemies, is beyond imagining.
After the enemy has killed his friends, Marcus is severly wounded and presumed dead by American forces. In spite of his injuries, he crawls over seven miles while confronting the assassins sent to kill him. He is taken in by a Pashtun tribe who risk everything to keep him alive and eventually get him back to American forces.

In addition to the loss of the three members of Marcus' SEAL team, the CH-47 rescue helicopter with a rescue and reinforcement team was shot down by a rocket propelled grenade. It was the largest loss of life in SEAL history, and the largest loss of Special Operations Forces since D-Day. Nineteen highly trained, dedicated and patriotic men died that day:

Petty Officer Danny Dietz (SEAL Team 1)

Petty Officer Matthew Axelson (SEAL Team 1)

Navy Lt. Mike Murphy (SEAL Team 1)

Chief Warrant Officer Corey J. Goodnature (pilot, US Army 160th Special Operations Aviation Regiment)

Chief Warrant Officer Chris J. Scherkenbach (pilot, US Army 160th SOAR)

Sgt. Kip A. Jacoby (US Army, 160th SOAR)

Sgt. 1st Class Marcus V. Muralles (US Army, 160th SOAR)

Chief Petty Officer Jacques J. Fontan (SEAL Team 10)

Lt. Cmdr. Erik S. Kristensen (SEAL Team 10)

Petty Officer 2nd Class James Suh (SEAL Team 1)

Petty Officer First Class Jeff Taylor (SEAL Team 10 Medic)

Sgt. First Class Michael Russell (US Army, 160th SOAR)

Maj. Steve Reich (pilot, US Army 160th SOAR)

Master Sgt. James "Tre" Ponder III (US Army, 160th SOAR)

Petty Officer 2nd Class Shane Eric Patton (SEAL Team 1)

U.S. Navy Lt. Michael McGreevy (SEAL Team 10)

Petty Officer Jeffrey Alan Lucas (SEAM Team 10)

Senior Chief Petty Officer Dan Healy (SEAL Team 1)

SSgt. Shamus Goare (US Army, 160th SOAR)

Marcus also gives us a parallel view of what was going on at his home during the time he was missing and presumed dead. He tells of the dedication of his family, friends, the SEAL community and the Texans who came to hold vigil. The spirit and faith of these people, many of whom did not know Marcus, is overwhelming and inspiring. It truly made me proud to live in the same America that they live in.

For their bravery and courage under fire Marcus Luttrell (previously known as "The One"), Danny Dietz and Matthew Axelson were awarded the Navy Cross. Michael Murphey was awarded a Silver Star and is being reviewed for a Medal of Honor.

If you ever have any questions about what patriotism, love of country, devotion, courage and bravery are, you only need to read this book to understand what they really mean. I have read this book twice. It has been an emotional journey, a journey of such profound pride in these young men, a journey of anger at trying to impose political correctness into warfare, a journey into the love between people that keeps them going on in spite of great tragedy.

I have heard Marcus' voice telling us what patriotism, love of country, devotion, courage and bravery are and how we undermine it at home. His anger is real. As is his love of his team, his friends, his family, Texas, and America. His shy and introspective nature is pushed to the side to tell this story and to give opinions about America at War. He had to leave the Navy - the thing he loved the most - to tell this story, because his love for his teammates and the truth was even greater. For that, I am truly grateful. Knowing about these twenty Americans has enriched my life.

As I listen to and watch the many interviews with Marcus Luttrell, I see a man who will ever be torn by the grief that was laid upon him by the events of Operation Redwing. I also see a man who gives the greatest respect for people he knows do not respect him, his brothers, the truth.

I'm ready for the movie. I cannot wait!

It is now an addiction

I, Lauren Nicole, am now addicted to Army Wives.
I never saw that coming. I think it's because I'm drawn to what I'm learning from watching it.
I'm learning how these women handle everyday military situations and that's always a good thing to know, right? lol
I don't know.....It is an addiction now though.
While I'm making out my 1,400+ index cards to help me (which in the end helps Rick) learn these acronyms I watch it and I think that keeps me from crying so much.
Doing something productive yet being entertained all the while= an addicting combination.

My mouth is warm from all these unspoken words

I have my good days and then, like today, I have bad ones. Days when I can't seem to get things together and no matter how hard I try to be strong, knowing that's what is best for everyone, it still seems impossible.

Something happened the other day that shook me a bit and I've been trying to decide if I should say anything about it or not. Last night I sat down to try and write what I've been thinking in regards to the situation but nothing ever seemed good enough. However, this afternoon I came across something and decided it was perfect and as such, should take the place of my words.

The definition of “guardian” is one who guards, watches over, or protects. For the guardians of the U.S. Coast Guard, being a guardian takes several forms. A guardian could be a Coast Guard Auxiliary member confined to a wheel chair but able to maintain radio guard for a 41- foot Coast Guard boat watchfully guarding our nation’s waterways.
It could be a Coast Guard Marine Inspector crawling into the bowels of a foreign container ship’s engine room because the inspector saw a suspicious pool of oil indicating a potential engine failure.
Like guardian angels, the Coast Guard is often unnoticed. Each and every member of the Coast Guard family -the storekeeper providing logistical support, an Auxiliarist on a routine patrol, a Coast Guard Reservist deployed to Bahrain, a Coast Guard civilian employee repairing a buoy or a Coast Guard retiree recruiting young people to the Coast Guard Academy - they are all, in fact, guardians.

Risk is inherent in being a guardian.
Earlier this week in Honolulu the Coast Guard family lost three Guardians and have suspended searching for a fourth. Something happened as the aircrew of a Coast Guard rescue helicopter was performing hoist operations with a Coast Guard 47-foot motor life boat. This tragic loss has gone largely gone unnoticed, perhaps because the country was focused on other Coast Guard guardians mobilizing to respond to hurricane threats in the Gulf of Mexico.

Coast Guard Commandant Thad Allen told the entire Coast Guard family,
“As Guardians, we constantly train and hone our skills in order to operate in hazardous conditions. This terrible accident is a reminder that we operate in an extremely hazardous environment. Coast Guard men and women go into harm’s way to train and conduct operations each day."

There was a bit more but the above mentioned pretty much covers what I've been thinking lately.
One of my all time favorite movies is The Guardian. It has been since it came out back in 2006(or around then) and I could seriously sit down and watch that movie all day but I can't for the life of me watch the scene where the helo goes down in the water. Since Rick got serious about being in the CG I just pass right over it everytime.
I know I need to stop worrying about the dangers but after this I'm not so sure that's going to be easy. Help is something I am going to have to learn to accept from now on otherwise I wont be very good at this and I want so desperately to be good at this--all of this.
Richard will be leaving in less than two years (that might seem like a while but I'm sure I wont feel like a long time) to start his life as a Coastie and honestly, I couldn't be prouder of him! Forgive me though, I still worry. The unanswered questions seem harder as time goes on but faith will get me though. I know it will.....but still. :/
It's more than just Richard now though....so much more.
I just have so much on my mind now. I've been hoping that in time the added communication will help ease this feeling I have but I could be waiting a bit longer than I thought for it and I'm not so sure what to do in the meantime.....
I guess while I wait I could just keep trying to learn these darn acronyms...all twenty-four hundred of them! lol
I still have so much to learn and I know the time I've put into learning all this will be worth it but really I think love, patience and acceptance of the things unknown will be more powerful than knowledge in the end. I hope so anyway. :/

I want to be ready for whatever though. I will be ready for whatever.
I will be strong even if it's just on the outside.
I will be patient, now more than ever.
I will trust that things will be okay.
I will love....
Love like I've never loved before.
This will be fine.
Again, we are one day closer.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

I made it

Another day down. :)

I have a bite mark to add to the collection of injuries attained at work. It goes well with the cut I have above my lip from where some 6 year old thought it would be amusing to show me how great his left hook is.
Let me tell you, it was great. Too bad I didn't react sooner. The thing that bugs me most about working with these kids(and it has noting to do with the kids themselves) is that they are learning this behavior from somewhere. Two guesses where and I bet I only need one. :/
I seriously love this job though!

Okay, moving on.
Funny story or to me it was at least. I guess adorable is a more accurate term though. Who knows, you decide.

I was in a classroom today working with a girl that has down syndrome and while I was there the rest of her class was working on rhyming words. The teacher explained rhyming words and then sent them to their seats with an assignment. Write two sets of rhyming words (cat-sat, house-mouse) then draw a picture to go with it.

A boy that sits next to the girl I was working with was just sitting there at his desk for like 10 minutes staring off into space so I encouraged him to get busy....
He looked at me like he had just noticed I was there and said, "Ma'am, maybe you can help me.... I can't think of anything that rhymes with Dallas Cowboys. That's what I really want to use but I just can't think of anything." Then he sighed really heavy and threw up his arms a bit.
I simply smiled and politely told him I was sorry but nothing came to mind.
How cute though that he had been trying to come up with something to rhyme with Dallas Cowboys when he could have just did something more simple like the other kids. It was grand.

Then, for his second set of words (this story isn't amusing at ALL...just giving fair warning) I watched as he drew a flag pole then my heart fluttered with excitement as he added an American flag to it. Next to the flag pole he drew an Army kit bag(flag-bag).

My heart fluttered again but it wasn't the same.
Only a kid coming from a military family would do something like that, seriously. When I saw that and realized what it meant....man, to tell you the truth, it broke my heart. He looked up at me and his face changed as we looked into each others eyes and he said in a really flat tone, "Daddy had to go away for a long time"
I just nodded my head as I went over to him and wrapped him in my arms as I watched a tear roll down his innocent, pale cheek. I honestly can't even imagine what all this child feels or thinks in regards to all of this.

Seven, and still he knew enough of what was going on otherwise he wouldn't have acted that way. His face wouldn't have changed the way it did and he wouldn't have just started crying like that.
But he was so sweet and mature about it. I helped him wipe away the tears and that adorable young man looked up at me, smiled and said, "You know what though, Miss Lauren? It's okay that Daddy left." I looked at him kind of taken aback. He continued, "I am proud of Daddy 'cause I know he left to help the good guys."

After that I was the one crying! It was such a precious moment though and I really do feel blessed to have had it. I just....wow. Children never cease to amaze me.

Monday, September 8, 2008

It's puppy love!!! :D


He is adorable!!!

I want him!!!!! :D

I would name him....

Jace and probably call him Jay for short cause I'm all about the nicknames. lol

Jace wasn't really my first pick but here's how I came up with it...hold on cause this could get crazy lol

I love my Cowboys. Taking that another step, I love Jason Witten.

I didn't want to name him Jason cause that's gay. (hahah! J/K)

But really, I didn't want to name him that. So I kept thinking and Jace came to mind. I didn't like it spelled "Jase" either so thats why its "Jace". Plus Jace sounds like Chase and I simply adore Chase Utley. :D
but then I decided I liked Jay soooo..... lol

There you go.

I would probably change that 10 times at least before I actually liked something enough to keep it.

I am so indecisive.

I hope if I have kids my husband, whoever he may be, is good at this stuff cause it's obvious I am not! lol

I have fun with it though.

Here are some others Kris came up with (it's obvious she did too hahaha!)

Izzie (I wouldn't have minded that if it were a girl)

Meredith (Izzie and Meredith, you would never guess she watches Grey's Anatomy would you?? lol)


Capri Sun (Sunny Sun for short.....lol)

Sassy, Chance or Shadow (from Homeward Bound)

Sandy (cause I love the beach lol)

I think there may have been a few others she came up with but I don't remember them now.

Oh wait, Mormon. That was another one.

It came to her after we talked about Glenn Beck lol

I thought about Bailey, maybe?? But I really want a male German Shepherd.

Then I thought about Hunter (Hunter Pence) but I didn't really like it much after thinking about it. But Hunter sounds like Gunner (at least with my southern drawl it does lol) and I like Gunner for personal reasons but Gunner isn't much of a name for a dog.

But anyway...

This has been fun to say the least.

Now if I just had a puppy for real that would be fantastic!

On to a different kind of love....

I was reading some of John Donne's love poems tonight and wanted a little help or other people's opinions on The Ecstasy. I came across eliteskills.com and wanted to pass it along.

Actually, regardless if you've ever read Donne before, check it out. Broaden your horizons a bit. :)

I disagree with parts of it but still thought it was worth mentioning.

I came across this as well. . . .

I believe it is the perfect way to explain how I feel(to an extent anyway).

If they be two, they are two so

As stiff twin encompasses are two,

Thy soul the fixt foot, makes no show

To move, but doth, if th'other doe.

No need for any other opinions here. :)

But if you need it try....
I think it's pretty good at explaining.
Enjoy ;)


Alone in a crowded room

One day closer.

That is all I keep thinking. One day closer. Over and over it runs through my mind.
One day closer. I am getting way too worked up over this. One day closer. What good ever comes from getting worked up anyway? One day closer. What is it about unanswered questions that makes situations seem ten thousand times worse? Just one day.
God has the plan. My God knows what will happen. I will be fine. This will be fine.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
And lean not on your own understanding
In all your ways acknowledge Him
And He shall direct your paths.
Proverbs 3:5-6.
One day closer.
I trust Him to give me what He wills and though I've become impatient at times in waiting for His answers I have always and will always be overwhelmed with how He presents them in a great package. One day closer.

guiding young minds and shaping the future

I love my job!!!

It's about time!!

Guess who had a breakthrough last night in regards to Army Wives? Yes, that's right. Last night (when I should have been sleeping, mind you) I completed episode 1 of season 1 of Army Wives. lol

I wanted to finish more of the season but it was already like 2 in the morning and I knew I had to be up in a few hours. Hopefully I'll be able to watch more in the future. Not tonight I'm guessing. lol Tonight I'm just going to want to sleep I bet.

I am so beat from last night but still, I woke up as usual and went for a little jog. I didn't feel like cooking breakfast so I just had some peanut butter crackers and water, took a shower now I'm sitting here typing this when I should probably be getting ready for work. Today is the first day and I am soooo anxious!! But excited all the same. I really think today is going to kill me though! I'm not sure I really got enough sleep to function very well. :/
I'll have to be more careful tonight.

6:45-- I need to get moving!

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Another day marking another year older

Okay so I totally underestimated my family and friends and thanks to them my birthday wasn't quite the gloomy affair I thought it would be. In fact, I think I laughed more today then I have in weeks.
Being that this is my life though, I still had a tremendously hard time fighting the urge to complain about not having my best friend with me today. Or at least having him call or email. I understand that's just not an option at this point so no worries.
But all that aside.... now its time for the good part.
Pictures :)

Flowers from my grandparents.

haha J/K

I've had that for like a year now.

Notice the DVD in the drive though?? I still can't watch that darn thing! :/

You get 10 cool points if you know the name of the picture on my desktop though!! :) Anyone know the name?? Anyone?

Okay....moving on.

How sweet is that?! I can't wait to use it!! Thanks Kris!! :)

I love you babe!

In all honesty I thought the Halloween candy thing was a bit random but it should be super fun to make!! :)

I got a few things for the new house too but some of it still hasn't come in yet and the rest is....somewhere? I really have no idea where it got put after opening it. lol

So no pictures of the rest of my presents just yet.
I'm sure that's a huge disappointment. lol

Aww yeaah!

Cowboys first win of the regular season babyy!
And it was on my birthday!! What better present right?! hahaha

Can't wait for Mondays game against the Eagles!!!

more randomness

100 Fun Questions Survey

Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? - open

Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? - nope

Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? - depends but in more often than not

Have you ever stolen a street sign before? - nope but I did on one occasion go with people who did

Do you like to use post-it notes? - love em :)

Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? - uh, no.

Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees? - ouch! neither but if I had to choose I guess it would be bees

Do you have freckles? - I do. Some in very strange places in fact lol

Do you always smile for pictures? - for sure unless I'm going for a different look

What is your biggest pet peeve? - when I really, really want to cook something late at night but don't have all the ingredients.

Do you ever count your steps when you walk? - I do when I run lol but only when I forget to charge my iPod the night before

Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing? - for sure!

Do you chew your pens and pencils? - back in the day I think I remember getting in trouble for it, yes.

How many people have you slept with this week? - that would be zero

What size is your bed? - full

What is your Song of the week? - I dont really have a song but all TSO and mewithoutyou songs are up there on the list

Is it okay for guys to wear pink? - if they want me to think they are gay then yes. haha I'm kidding! Thats like saying a girl can't wear blue or something without it being strange.

Do you still watch cartoons? - nope. Mostly things on ESPN, ESPN2, NFL Network, Fox News, CNN(only for Glenn Beck though), Military, History, Science and Discovery Ch. Seems like I watch a lot of TV huh? lol I really dont though.

Whats your least favorite movie? - nothing comes to mind

Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some? - Guess you are just going to have to find my secret map full of complex clues.

What do you drink with dinner? - sweet tea!! :)

What do you dip a chicken nugget in? - ketchup

What is your favorite food? - Italian! yumm :)

What movies could you watch over and over and still love? - The Guardian, Troy, The Patriot, Black Hawk Down and The Notebook. Which of these is not like the others? lol

Last person you kissed/kissed you? - uhm. It's probably best I not answer that.

Were you ever a boy/girl scout? - lol nope

Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? - haha no way

When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? - yesterday actually

Can you change the oil on a car? - I've never done it before but I like to think I would be able to if need be

Ever gotten a speeding ticket? - no way

Ran out of gas? - nope

Favorite kind of sandwich? - peanut butter and banana

Best thing to eat for breakfast? - oatmeal and a big glass of orange juice :) yum

What is your usual bedtime? - waaaay later than it needs to be but I still manage to function the next day

Are you lazy? - I can be

When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween? - an angel like every single year lol

What is your Chinese astrological sign? - who cares?!

How many languages can you speak? - I'm only fluent in English. I'm working on Spanish, German and Iraqi Arabic though

Do you have any magazine subscriptions? - Southern Living and Sports Illustrated

Which are better legos or lincoln logs? - lol legos I guess

Are you stubborn? - I can be

Who is better...Leno or Letterman? - Glenn Beck :) hehe

Ever watch soap operas? - nope

Afraid of heights? - Not often. Sometimes I can handle heights sometimes I can't, just depends.

Sing in the car? - of course! :)

Dance in the shower? - lol nope

Dance in the car? - only if I am with Kris lol

Ever used a gun? - I'm from Texas, what do you think??? lol I reeeeaaalllly want to shoot a Dillion M 134 Gatling gun!! Oooh my! Those things look amazing! I get excited just thinking about it!

Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? - at one of the last few Astros games I went to I think??

Do you think musicals are cheesy? - some can be but not all of them

Is Christmas stressful? - nope, It's the best!

Ever eat a pierogi? - I actually tried to make my own the other day....didn't go as well as I thought it would lol

Favorite type of fruit pie? - fruit pie.....lol! You dont often hear it called that down here. Cherry and blackberry are my favorites though.

Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? - doctor, firefighter, teacher and marine biologist. Still seriously considering the latter two

Do you believe in ghosts? - nope

Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? - haha yeah, like almost every conversation with Joel. But other than that, no.

Take a vitamin daily? - Iron (for my VSD), B-12 (for lots of reason, its a very complicated vitamin), vit-D (it helps regulate Calcium which my body has a problem with obviously. Gotta be careful with it though cause the skin and sunlight exposure also produces it) and 200mgs of vit-C every 6 hours unless I feel like I might be getting sick then I move it to 400mgs every 8 hrs. The medical world doesn't have a safe max amount of vit-C your should ingest but your body doesn't produce vit-C on its own and it leaves the body within 6 hrs so it's fine. The 2 hrs after its out of my system are used to revamp on H2O then its right back to the vit-C.

Wear slippers? - nope

Wear a bath robe? - sometimes

What do you wear to bed? - absolutely nothing most of the time

Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? - WalMart but Target is a very close second

Nike or Adidas? - Nike for running and tennis. Adidas for just about everything else

Cheetos Or Fritos? - cheetos for sure

Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? - neither

Ever hear of the group Tres Bien? - yes, not a big fan though

Ever take dance lessons? - does twirling count?

Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? - Yes

Can you curl your tongue? - like a pro!

Ever won a spelling bee? - Nope

Have you ever cried because you were so happy? - lol I'm a girl. That's pretty much a given.

Own any record albums? - I have access to some but I myself do not own them

Own a record player? - lol no, I do not own one. I did look at some on eBay though and seriously considered getting one.

Regularly burn incense? - nope

Ever been in love? - :)

Who would you like to see in concert? - TSO!!! :)

What was the last concert you saw? - Neal McCoy :)

Hot tea or cold tea? - sweet iced tea is the best!!

Tea or coffee? - sweet tea

Sugar or snickerdoodles? - Oh my! I have the best recipe for both!!! You should come over sometime and let me make some for you! :)

Can you swim well? - very well

Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? - indeed

Are you patient? - very much so

DJ or band, at a wedding? - hmmm... good question, I have no idea.

Ever won a contest? - Yes, one week I won high school You Pick 'Em. It was great.

Ever have plastic surgery? - nope

Which are better black or green olives? - black

Can you knit or crochet? - back in the day I could but it's been ages since I last did either so I am not sure I still can

Best room for a fireplace? - living room or bed room

Do you want to get married? - Yes, very much so but not for a few more years.

Who was your HS crush? - crushes are so silly.

Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? - The only thing dumber than doing that is being a liberal. So, the answer is no

Do you have kids? - nope

Do you want kids? - I do indeed

Whats your favorite color? - black and white but mostly because of the picture Kissing the War Goodbye

Do you miss anyone right now? - very much so!

Did you watch, Next Great American Band on FOX? - only enough to know that's where Tres Bien got their big break from.

Random information about me

60 Questions People Dont Ask Survey

When's the last time you ran? - this morning

Do your jeans have rips, tears, and holes in them? - some but I got them that way

What are you dreading right now? - nothing as of now

Do you celebrate 420? - noope. That is ironically my dad's birthday though lol

Do you get the full 8 hours of sleep a night? - sometimes

If anyone came to your house on your "lazy days" what would ya'll do? - watch football of course :)

Who last grabbed your butt? - haha I am much too modest to talk about that

Have you ever been on your school's track team? - yes, many years ago

Do you own a pair of Converse? - psh, no. I'm too sporty for that. Some of them are cute though!!

Do you eat raw cookie dough? - only every chance I get!

Have you ever kicked a vending machine? - uh, no.

Don't you hate it when the radio ruins good songs by playing them over and over? - for sure but I do the same with my iPod so...

Do you watch Trading Spaces? - back in the day when I wasn\'t cool enough to watch anything better

How do you eat oreos? - I use my phalanges, nervous system, mouth, esophagus, stomach, small intestine, large intestine-- and so on. There is a lining inside your organs called the mucosa and in the mouth, stomach, and small intestine, the mucosa contains glands that make juices to help digest food and pass on to the next organ... surely from here you know the rest. lol

Have you ever stayed online for a very long time waiting for someone? - actually, yes but not often.

Are you cocky? - confident is a more accurate term

Could you live without a computer? - Yes. I could not however, live without internet access. There is a difference.

Do you wear your shoes in the house? - not supposed to but yes, sometimes I do.

Who or what sleeps with you? - Who? No one on a regular basis. What? Pillows and the A&M blanket my grandmother made for me and gave me last Christmas.

At what age did you find out that Santa wasn't real? - hahaha I was like 10-ish, standing in the kitchen and I think it was around mid-Summer. lol I remember it very well

How many phones, house phones and cell phones are in your house? - oh my. Waaaay too many!

What do you do when you're sad? - Depends. I usually start baking though. If that's not an option then I bust out the camera and take like a bizillion pictures.

Who would you call first if you won the lottery? - that's a good question. I have no idea though. I think I'd probably Twitter it lol

Last time you saw your best friend? - My best friend is at Basics right now. My next best friend is away at college and doesnt come home much....

Are you in high school? - nope

What jewelry are you wearing? - true love waits ring and my white pearl necklace

Is anyone on your bad side now? - no way

What's the first thing you do when you get online? - check my email

Do you watch Grey's Anatomy? - Boy do I ever! :D

How do most people spell your name? - Lauren Nicole

Would you wear a boy/girlfriends clothes? - yes

Where do you work? - Rusk ISD, fun! :)

What are you doing tomorrow? - work then Monday Night Football baby! Next weeks game is gonna be the best! Eagles vs. Cowboys at Texas Stadium! Yay!! Can't wait to see my 'Boys show those lame Birds how real men play football! :)
Maybe McNabb will actually be healthy???

Is Justin Timberlake becoming the next Michael Jackson? - I could seriously care less.

Favorite name for a girl? - Madison....maybe? Or Bailey.

Favorite name for a boy? - Jacob but call him Jake. I like the name Andrew too but not for a first name. Hopefully my husband has better suggestions. I'm much too indecisive. lol

Will you keep your last name when you get married? - uh, no.

When was the last time you left your house? - honestly, it's been a while (almost a week). but i've been sick so....

Do you return your cart? - cart....haha yes, more often than not I do return it.

Do you have a dishwasher? - Thankfully, yes! Not that I mind washing dishes myself but it does save time and that's always a plus!

What noise do you hear? - Cowboys pre-game :)

Would you survive in prison? - probably not

Who is the youngest in your family? - Ricky (16)

If all of your friends were going on a road trip, who would most likey overpack? - lol Saran comes to mind first but who knows.

Do you know anyone with the same name as you? - Yes, cause it's the best name ever! :)

What's the last thing you purchased? - stuff from Victorias Secret :)

Do your siblings ever pay for stuff for you? - sometimes but not often

What brand are your pants right now? - American Eagle

Ever been to Georgia (the state)? - Yes but only for a connecting flight to Tampa, Fl

What irritates you most on the internet? - I'm sure there is something but nothing comes to mind as of now

What brand is your digital camera? - Olympus

Do you watch movies with your parents? - sometimes

What song best describes your life right now? - Lucky by Jason Mraz

Do you own expensive perfume/cologne? - expensive can mean different things to different people. I usually wear Lucky, Hollister SoCal or Abercrombie 8

Do you like sushi? - never tried it and don't plan on trying it.

Do you get your hair cut every month? - I do not. I'm growing it out now so at most it gets trimmed when need be.

Do you go online everyday? - I do indeed

Saturday, September 6, 2008

I think it's time to start baking!

The closer it gets to my birthday the more down I get so....

It's time to bake.

That always makes me feel much better.

The only question now is, who is going to eat all this???! lol

Are you ready for some fooball?! :D

Saturday. A day of sitting on the couch watching college football. Fall is by far my favorite season for that very reason. And thanks to Gustav we now have amazing weather :)

There is a light, crisp breeze flowing through the trees. You really couldn't ask for better football-like weather around here. It wont last though. It's Texas so the heat will return soon enough. You can set you calender by it. Even in the Winter cold weather doesn't last more than a week or so at a time.

I took more pictures today. This time they were of me though and none of them are something I'd put on here. I've had such fun with my new camera. :D
Now I just need a better editing program to go along with it. I thought about making one myself but it would take forever and a day so I'll probably just go ahead and buy one.

I got offered a job the other day that I guess I'm going to take. I've enjoyed my schedule the way it is now but I know I'd love this job so why not.
All of this will only be for a few months anyway then it's off to Dallas. :) I actually like Rusk but Dallas offers more and that's what I need.
I'd move to Galveston if it were as big as Dallas.
I thought about Houston but as much as I love Houston it doesn't give me the same feeling Dallas does.
Just like a girl huh? To make a decision like that based on feelings! lol

No, I've been praying about it and will continue to pray about it. I was just being cute about the feelings being the decision maker. I'm just excited and ready for whatever.
Everything will work out Gods way and that excites me to no end! His plan for my life is far better than one I could make on my own. I trust that and am enjoying all of this.

Can you believe 2008 is almost over? Wow, this year started so differently for me than how it's ending. And it's only September so there is still room for change.
It takes my breath away though to sit and think of all the blessings I've been given this year, seriously. I am so unworthy but I serve a God that is merciful and forgiving! :)

Tonight is the eve of my 19th birthday. Tomorrow I am staying in bed. I'm hoping by the evening though I will have gotten over my selfishness and will want to join the rest of my friends and family in the celebrating of my birth. I would like nothing more than to go to Galveston for the rest of the weekend....don't see that happening though.
I know who I really want to celebrate with but that's even less likely to happen than going to the beach. :/

Oh well.
Life goes on.
I'm just being selfish.
And knowing that I'm selfish
just makes me feel extremely guilty.

Well, there you have it

the deed is done.

Friday, September 5, 2008

And fear swept in like the rushing tide

It's about that time.
I hope everything goes okay.

Yes, I actually am shaking somewhat.
I just really want everything to be okay.

Is it really any use playing out scenarios in my head?
It's not like things ever work out the way you plan.

Is it okay that I'm nervous?
Cause I am.

It's fear

Fear is never an okay thing.
It's weak and I don't like weakness.

This can't be helped this time though.
No matter how hard I fight it.

Chances like this don't come along very often.
It would be such a shame to let fear keep me from it.

Perhaps the fears will all go away when the time comes?
Just one look is all it will take and the fears will vanish.

Let me see those eyes and feel that touch.
Then all of this fear will be gone.

I hope.

TSO Tickets- duex


I got it all sorted out.

Anyone want to go to the show with me on the 3rd?

The TSO experience is much more fun as a group.

wicked sweet, huh? :D

TSO tickets

Trans Siberian Orchestra tickets aren't on sale for shows in Texas yet. :(
I can't believe I passed up the chance to go last Christmas!
I guess family is more important but still!!

This year they aren't playing a show on Christmas.
There is a show in Dallas on the 3rd of January though that I was going to try and get tickets to but the tickets for Texas shows aren't on sale. :(
Actually only the East coast shows are on sale at this point. DC, PA, Ohio, West Virginia and a few other places.
I'm disappointed to say the least.
And I'm extraordinarily frustrated with myself for not going to the Christmas show last year!

TSO defines Christmas! Not really...but they do help establish an air of anticipation.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

America's Future

I really like Sarah Palin!

All tears, no play

I didn't have to work today so I spent the afternoon trying to find out more stuff about Rusk.
In the process I came across old pictures and newspaper articles about my Grandmother.

Needless to say, it's been a rather emotional afternoon.

But all that aside...be sure and check out the slide show I added to the right side of the page. It's basically Rusk, Tx at a glance. Sorry but it's still in the beginning stages so please pardon the repetitiveness of some of the pictures.
And if you want to know more about Rusk try http://www.thecherokeean.com/ It's a great way to stay connected.
While you're there be sure and explore the Archive page.
Also you can see more of Rusk at http://www.rusktexascoc.org/ take a look at the history page and tour the landmarks around Rusk.
Or http://www.city-data.com/city/Rusk-Texas.html

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

"That's impossible!"

Words like this often roll off our tongue. Demands given to us at work, deadlines which seem unreasonable, or circumstances we find ourselves in can often cause us to declare what cannot be done. But once we get past the moment of exasperation, what does a statement like that really mean? Does the term "impossible" reflect what cannot be done, or just the fact we cannot imagine a way in which things can work out? There really is a difference.

Our eyes deceive us. While at times we are faced with situations beyond human control, nothing is ever beyond God's control.

I say "I can't" more times that I care to count. During my quiet time with God the other day I came across that and it's something I've heard people say a thousand different times but never cared to apply it. Not this time though.
Here's something else God's been working on me about....

One of the greatest fears most Christians have comes when they are asked to share their faith. Just hearing the word "Evangelism" can cause your chest to tighten, your heart rate to quicken and your head to ache. It is one of those commands in Scripture which we would rather others do so we can go back to serving in those places where it is safe. To deny these fears is to be less than honest, but to let these fears keep us from sharing is disobedience. What are we to do then? Are we go through life nauseated by the prospect of sharing our faith in Jesus or can we have victory over our fear? You guessed it, we can have victory, but only if we will exercise a little faith.
You have already overcome many fearful situations in your life. Remember what it was like to learn how to drive? It was exciting to think about the freedom of having your license, but getting there was another matter. The first trip out on the highway was nerve racking, but you did it. And if you have been driving for any amount of time, it has become second nature; you rarely even think about what used to scare you to death. Your first job might have been like that. A conflict awaiting you at school might have been like that. But all in all, somehow you made it through. Overcoming fearful situations is just a part of life, and as a believer you have someone who will walk you through.
Jesus told His disciples they would face opposition from the world. Because of their commitment to Christ men would hand them over to the courts and cast them into jail. But the comfort Jesus left them was this, "But when they hand you over, do not worry about how or what you are to say; for it will be given you in that hour what you are to say. For it is not you who speak, but it is the Spirit of your Father who speaks in you." You see, the Holy Spirit will not abandon you, but in fact will give you the words to say. Just knowing I am not alone gives me confidence to do what God has asked me to do.
Never underestimate the power of the indwelling Holy Spirit. For when your heart quickens at a witnessing opportunity do not turn away from it; give it to the Lord. And the God of all creation will give you the words to say as you share with another human being the great love of our Savior Jesus Christ

and then there's this....
It's not so much something I struggle with as much as the other two things mentioned above but just because it's not the 'worst' doesn't mean it doesn't need to be dealt with. It's something I realized I needed to deal with a few weeks ago when I was on my exodus for the meaning of love.

There is a truth in Scripture that helps me when someone is spewing hatred at me for my faith, and it comes from I Corinthians 2:14, "But a natural man does not accept the things of the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him; and he cannot understand them, because they are spiritually appraised."
It reminds me they just don't understand what God's love is all about. If someone who was mentally handicapped said, "You are stupid!" we wouldn't be offended personally like we might be if someone in the office said the same thing. Why? Because we give certain allowances and latitude to those who don't fully understand.
So, when you're verbally assaulted for your faith in Jesus Christ, don't respond with anger; rather, respond with love. You never know, God may use you in that very moment to deliver a new soul into eternity.